so its been a long time. i guess its bc idk wut to say. i just feel like expressing my self today so here it goes...i hate my feelings. they can never make up there mind. i know whenever sumone hears about another person cheating on sumone their automatic response is wut a dick! if i where her i would have dumped his sorry ass...hell to the no! well at least thats how i thought of it untill it actually happend to me. i honestly dont know wut hurts more the fact that he cheated on me or the fact that i wasnt good enough for him that everything we had meant nuthing. i was completly honest n vaurnable to being loved n then he betrayed that... n after everything we've been though...all the ups and downs it wasnt good enough..it hurts so bad! its like how can one cope with such pain! how does one move on when they r still secretly in love with the one person who broke their heart?? its hard to even imagine life moving on without him..when he was the one person who made u so happy, who completed ur life, who u loved...how do u just move on?? its so hard to imagine that he never had feelings for u...i just cant. i miss him yet i have to be strong n not go back bc i know i deserve better...its just ughh!! so yea.